1000 days of the running diary, 12.7.19
life can change in the blink of an eye, imagine what it could do to you in 1000 days. most things i write are too personal to share, so i keep them to myself, but i still find it significant to express me to myself even if in the presence of only myself.
when someone asks what i've been up to, i usually respond by saying nothing. but am i really doing nothing? is spending time with bagel nothing? is listening to music nothing? is getting dressed nothing? is laying in bed thinking nothing? just as i believe it is important to date things, the documentation of the mundane is critical too. it isn't until we're forced to embrace change that we realize how valuable these moments of nothing are. i don't want the impending nature of life to dictate my gratitude. i don't want to get burnt playing with fire in order to learn how to appreciate the warmth it brings. i don't want to have to fall walking this tight rope we call life to understand the importance of balance. although two polar opposites do not exist without one another, i do not want to let my pain amplify my happiness.
if life is all we have, then life must be everything, and if everything is all-encompassing, that means it's inclusive of nothing, which leads me to believe nothing can be everything the same way everything can mean nothing.
happy 1000th day to the running diary.
here's to 1000 more.
vicky we still miss and love you . always have, always will.
thanks for reading.