IN BED ON FACEBOOK (AUDIO BLOG)
I first heard this song Summer of 2014. It was on some video about love that I just so happened to watch that was shared on my Facebook timeline. As I watched the video, at the time I was in a very serious relationship, so I really resonated with a bunch of elements in the video. I don’t think I’m doing a good job of setting up this story, nonetheless the video was pretty much a bunch of memes about love. It wasn’t troll memes either, it was things such as, “Having someone to wake up to is better than finding someone to sleep with.” Yes a few were corny, but when you’re in love, nothing is ever really too cliché or too corny. That comes with the territory. It’s as simple as that. The song played in the background was this song. Treat Me Like Somebody. I fell in love with the song as the video progressed.
That whole summer was pretty rough in terms of my relationship with my girl at that point. We traveled places emotionally, that I feel, even some marriages won’t ever explore. And they shouldn’t! You see, when you’re in love, you tend to overlook the honesty of the past in turn for your hopes of the future. This is a very classic case of that. At this time, we were shacked up. if you don’t know what that means, it [pretty much] means that we were living together. She lived with me and my roommate at our apartment. Colonial Village off of WT Harris. On this particular night, she was at work. She worked at Concord Mills Mall, and she was closing. That was about 15 minutes away from my place. I was at home writing, taking care of Bagel, you know, just a regular night. There were soooo many things on my mind though. It’s just so contradictory the things that were going on and the way I was thinking about things. I laid in bed, in the dark and thought, well if we’re in love, right, and we make each other happy, and we’re together, then why don’t we feel that way? That was the confusing part to me, but this is where the honesty comes in. If someone in a relationship can’t be honest in the way they feel to themselves, it puts a strain on the relationship, making it very difficult to be 100% there, 100% of the time. Honesty can be your biggest aid or your biggest hindrance in a relationship. This is so weird to admit but, long story short, she came home and saw me in this emotional state. She was so caught off guard and instinctively she was like “What’s wrong?” I couldn’t give her an answer because I wasn’t so sure myself. Relationships can be very tricky, just don’t fool yourself into thinking something’s there when there’s really nothing.
I don’t really know how that night concluded because I’ve tried to erase most of that summer from my memory, although, perhaps some things don’t go away. Maybe that’s a part of love that I have yet to deal with. And that’s honest.
-RDL4EVER